Numbers Have Always Been My Obsession

Every number in my life has been a messenger – showing me who I am and who I’m here to become.

Civan

The Obsession with Numbers

How Numbers Shaped My Life

When I think back to my childhood, some memories fill me with pride – while others carry a certain pain.

The Math Prodigy:
By the age of four, I was already multiplying numbers. By six, I was solving two- and three-digit multiplications. In first grade, my teachers were overwhelmed – they didn’t know how to challenge me. While my classmates were learning basic addition, I was working on problems from fourth-grade math books.

But instead of fostering my talent, my teachers eventually decided that I should stop doing math. They wanted me to focus on my “weaknesses” – like writing.

The Game of Numbers:
Numbers weren’t just something I learned in school – they were everywhere. I remember walking to school and adding up license plate numbers from the cars I passed. The faster I walked, the faster I had to calculate.
It was a game, a race against myself – and at the same time, a deeply satisfying experience.

Talks with My Grandfather:
I grew up in Zurich, Switzerland but every year I visited my Grandfather in a small Kurdish village in Turkey.
My grandfather often had visitors – men from the neighborhood, friends, strangers, travelers.
They would sit in a circle, drink turkish tea and discuss life.

And me?
I was right there with them.

My late Grandfather loved to challenge me. Time and again, he would ask his guests to give me multiplication problems.
And I loved it. It wasn’t just about getting the right answer – I wanted to be fast.
I wanted to impress them. I felt alive when I saw the look of disbelief in their eyes as they watched me solve problems in seconds.

So Numbers have always been an obsession of mine. They weren’t just something I liked – they were part of my being.
But it wasn’t until much later in life that I understood why.

Looking back, I realize that two defining moments shaped my journey, both leading to fundamental questions that altered my path forever.

These Questions

Who am I?
and Why am I here?

became the pillars of my Self-Discovery and ultimately led me (back) to The Numbers.

The Question of Who Am I?

At 19 years old, I faced a period of deep depression. I felt lost, disconnected from myself and unsure of my place in the world. In the midst of this emotional turmoil, I found myself drawn to Indian philosophy. It became a guiding light, leading me to a teacher who profoundly influenced my way of thinking.

One of the most powerful lessons she taught me was simple yet transformative:

💡 All answers lie within – you just have to learn how to listen.

For years, I sought truth outside of myself, trying to find my place by meeting expectations and fitting into predefined roles.

But through deep introspection, I came to understand that living my Truth was my core value.

The pursuit of external validation had to be replaced with Inner Alignment.

The Question of Why Am I Here?

At 27 years old, I faced a loss that shattered my world.

My firstborn son Darshan, due to a genetic muscular condition, passed away at just 13 months old.

Nothing prepares you for the loss of a child.

Grief consumed me and once again, I found myself seeking answers – this time, on an even deeper level.

It was during this period that I turned to Human Design and Numerology. These systems weren’t just abstract theories; they provided me with Language, structure and insight that helped me understand Life’s patterns in a way I had never seen before.

I began to recognize that life isn’t random.

Numbers, patterns, cycles – they all hold meaning.

And if I could decode them, I could understand not just myself, but the journey we all take.

Connecting the Dots

The Path to Numerology


These two defining questions – Who am I? and Why am I here? – shaped my realization that Numerology is my path.

As a father of two more children (born in 2018 & 2022), I experience that babies and toddlers are the most authentic versions of themselves.

Before Societal Conditioning, School Pressures and External Expectations take over, we exist in a pure state of our individual truth.

This led me to reflect deeply on my first seven years of life.

I traced back to my early love for numbers, my mental arithmetic talents
and my natural way of seeing patterns in the world.

I wasn’t just “good at math” – I was wired to understand numbers differently.

The same way my childhood held keys to my truth, I now help others unlock theirs.

Why I Teach Numerology

Numerology is not about predictions. It’s about understanding the energetic blueprint we carry. Because Numbers carry vibrations.

It helps us navigate life, recognize patterns and make decisions from a place of clarity.

My journey – through loss, discovery and deep introspection – has given me a unique perspective on this ancient system.

🔹 If you are searching for Meaning, Numerology can reveal your life’s Cycles and Themes.

🔹 If you feel disconnected from your Path, Numbers can realign you with your Truth.

🔹 If you’re navigating Change, your Personal Year Number can guide you through transitions.

I deeply believe that STRENGTH LIES IN NUMBERS – not just in calculations, but in their deeper significance.

Let’s read between the lines, together.

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